Awhile: June 11, 2022

Writing, for me, is an opportunity to lay bare the sometimes jumbled thoughts and emotions that life brings me. It is a place for me to distill the complicated down to the essential, perhaps the universal, because the human experience truly is. And, as Larry recently told me, it is an essential piece of me that has been hibernating for far too long.

Today is Day +2. The two days of rATG, my transplant day, and the subsequent days up until now have been challenging ones. None of this is unexpected or worrisome, but it is nonetheless heavy. Mostly, what has prevented me from writing is an overwhelming sense of lassitude, which demands my full attention, making it difficult to sit with my thoughts and turn them into something coherent.

But surprisingly, the very effort of sitting up and opening my laptop to type this post has been invigorating. Perhaps a short, more spontaneous post is enough right now. Moving forward, I will give myself the grace to write when I can, whatever I can. It will be enough. (And I'll try to fill in the backstory of the last week as I'm up to it.)

If you're looking for a deeply resonating post today, I'm not sure you've found it. Or maybe...you have. You can let me know.

P.S. I am posting short daily updates on Instagram fairly reliably, which you can find here:

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